Open Letter To My Mom

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I’ll be forever thankful 
You’re the one who held me up
Never let me fall” -Celine Dion

I want to start off by saying I love you. I know I don’t show it as much as I should, but I truly love you. This past year I haven’t really been around, and regret every minute that I spent away from you. You are honestly the very most important person to me. You are my hero. I know that life can be tough for you at times, and lately I haven’t been doing much to make it any easier, but I want you to know that I’ve seen the sacrifices you’ve made for me throughout my life, and I am forever grateful for that. This blog entry will never come close to express how insanely blessed I am to have been raised by someone as genuine as you. You molded me into the person that I am today. I love you more than I will ever find a way to tell you.

Thank you. Thank you for being the most motivating and loving person to me. Thank you for giving me your eyes. Thank you for the times we pulled all nighters to have girl talk. Thank you for letting me skip school just to spend the day together. Thank you for spending countless hours trying to find the perfect prom dress. Thank you for dealing with me the day of prom. Thank you for working two jobs just to pay for a wedding dress that I will never wear and a wedding I will never have. Thank you for the lessons, smiles, laughter, hugs, and coffee dates. Most importantly thank you for never letting me forget that I will always have someone who loves me even at my worst. You never gave up on me. You accept me for who I am and you always advice me that you are proud of the women I have become. Thank you so much.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry for the fights that didn’t need to happen. I’m sorry for the times I let you down. I’m sorry for the nights I chose my boyfriend or friends over you. I’m sorry for the times I hurt your feelings. I have no words that could specify the amount of guilt I feel when looking back at some of our moments. I know you forgive me, but I will spend a lifetime apologizing, because you deserve the world and nothing less. I hope that when I have a daughter that her and I can be as close as you and I were growing up. Even when I would be breaking down wondering how I could possibly get through the night the thought of you would come to mind and I felt a sense of peace. You are my entire world, whether you know it or not. You are my inspiration, and motivation. Thank you for being my everything, and most importantly, thank you for being my mom.