“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me… everyday.” ― Nicholas Sparks
I don’t want you to be my everything
Before all else, it is essential that I am 100% secure with myself before I commit any part of me to you. I need to be my own everything. I want to explore my heart and soul. I want to discover what makes me irritable and be able to create my own kind of happiness. I want to have the confidence to look in the mirror and know that I am beautiful with or without affirmation from you.
I am at fault for depending on another person to make me feel alive. I allowed them to be the reason behind whether I had a good day or not. I gave every last piece of myself to the point that in the end, there was nothing left but flesh and bone.
I refuse to allow myself to do that again.
I vow to not love anyone more than I love myself.
If somewhere along this expedition of life that we find each other and our worlds merge, I will allow you to be my almost everything. You can be my glass of wine and I’ll be your shot of whiskey. I want you to clear me of any uncertainty and challenge me with your sanity. Respect me and be honest with me. If you do that for me, I can reciprocate that back to you. Lets go on adventures, build each other up, and finish this journey together as a team.
I know my own worth and know what I am capable of. I am madly dedicated to my friends, family, degree, career, fitness, and passions. With or without this relationship, I am me, and my own kind of everything. I wish for you to have the same mindset.
I want you to be your own everything and for me to be mine.